“Helplessness: that dull, sick feeling of not being the one at the reins. When did you last feel like that –- and what did you do about it?” It’s now day three that I am under the weather. I am so sick and tired of being sick with coughing, sneezing and dull achy feeling. Living alone does not help. I feel so alone in this world. I want my mommy. The weather is uncooperative. It has been raining for a week now, cold miserable winter day. I am so bored all cooped up at home. It’s so depressing looking at the weather. I want the Sun. Be patient. This too shall pass. It’s hard to be patient being sick with colds. I know I’m not the only one suffering with this blooming cold. I caught this from commuting, from work, from who knows. No point of blaming. I just have to have a lot of patience. Where can I buy patience? What am I going to do about? I will cook more chicken noodle soup, cuddle up with my cats and a dose of hope from the Lost Generation.