Here I am, another Sunday, another sacred space of faith and spiritual journey, more memories and reflections. There are times I don’t want to understand the course of our actions that affect other people similar to a “butterfly effect.” Still, I am still inclined to slowly digest the book Pilgrim Progress written by John Bunyan.
John Bunyan’s main character is Christian who was stricken by a spiritual crisis and set out on a pilgrimage to find salvation.
In his journey, he met an Evangelist, Obstinate, Pliable, Help, Wordly Wiseman, Hypocrisy, Discretion, Piety, Prudence, Charity, Faithful, Angels, Despair, Hopeful, Talkative, Contrite, and others. But of course, Christian has a special guide that steers him to the right path.
Strange names for these characters are present in the dynamics of being part of a big group on a pilgrimage. Strong characters that we all play a role with the hope that peace and healing will come our way. Just like Christian, our deep faith and belief, we are guided by the Holy Spirit.
It would be absurd to think that we are full of virtues just because we are on a spiritual quest. However, we strive to see the goodness of one another. Sure, disagreement can surface; that is the reality of it all.
There seem to be more questions than answers when we pray along the way. The force of evil will make sure that peace will be broken amongst us. One has to be aware of this as it happens and not let it take over our will.
As for me, I bear in mind the teaching of Thomas Merton on the journey of a pilgrim, that it is a time for solitude to deepen our love, faith and prayer.
O Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.
I do not see the road ahead of me.
I cannot know for certain where it will end.
Nor do I really know myself
and the fact that I think that I am following your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so.
But I believe that the desire to please you
does in fact please you.
And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything
apart from that desire to please you.
And I know that if I do this,
you will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.
Therefore, will I trust you always
though I may seem to be lost
and in the shadow of death.
I will not fear,
for you are ever with me,
and you will never leave me
to make my journey alone.