In March in 1958, the famous Christian monk Thomas Merton suddenly awakened. He recorded it this way in his journal:
“Yesterday, in Louisville, at the corner of 4th and Walnut, suddenly realized that I loved all the people and that none of them were, or, could be totally alien to me. As if waking from a dream—the dream of my separateness, of the ‘special’ vocation to be different….Thank God! Thank God! I am only another member of the human race, like all the rest of them. I have the immense joy of being a man!….”
Imagine having a transcendental experience that all you feel is love, that all people are “beautiful” and that everything is light. The feeling of euphoria stays for the longest time. It feels good and it feels unreal at the same time. You wanted your old self again and yet how do you do it when you don’t even know how you came to this state of mind. No, there is no hallucination. No, there is no mental illness. It was more of a spiritual emergence.
To come back to your previous disposition before is a blessing. Thank God, indeed.